The Certain Price

 

There is a reason why heartbreak songs will remain touching –

and that is because they are the few times the heart truly speaks.

Speeches that blend the beauty of memories, the uncertainties of the present, the pain of the process, and the dark foreshadows of the future.

 

To teach your heart to suddenly say goodbye to the one image it’d timelessly said hello to;

Or to try to recreate an explicit image of a future that revolved around the one person.

There is no way this can be done without the heart breaking.

 

Lost cause? Sunken costs? Broken roads? Blessings?

The duality of place-of-mind. To hold on or to let go?

The constant reliving of every prior moment;

The naught but dead silence to the recurring questions:

Will there be another time? Can I get another chance? Be this the reality? Indeed the goodbye?

The constant beating up of yourself over the certain mistake;

The wishing upon invisible stars to go back in time to change any single thing if you could.

You’d do all it takes – just to have your world again – sigh.

But the actuality would be to wave half-hearted goodbyes to ships set a-sail.

 

Then it gets more confusing when doors shut in your face only make you want to enter all the more.

Or resounding no’s in each way sounds like persistent ‘try agains’.

Maybe we are suckers for love –

Or maybe, some people are worth melting for. 

Time certainly heals – and there is the hope that this would too. But then there’ll always be the sharp knife that cuts with every look back. It’s the hope that kills sometimes. The gallery flips that leave you on a rollercoaster of emotions; happy, teary, misty, mad, sad, hopeful, cursed, blessed,…sigh. Perhaps, one more try, one more conversation…

But the morning rises and falls at the days end – a reminder that life will keep going on.

Thus, better enjoy it while you can. Enjoy the fleeting love; for whichever way it does, it does. It burns, it hurts, it kills, it thrills…

But it is certainly the price.

 

“Nothing compares, no worries or cares;

Regrets and mistakes, they’re memories made.

Who’d have known how bittersweet this would taste?”

 

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